stupid: 2009

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
Cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long
Erase all the pain till it’s gone
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

i've put my trust in you
push as far sa i can go
for all this
there only one thing u should know
i try so hard and got so far
but in the end
it doesnt even matter
i had to fall to lose it all

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

是我想要的？

3个月的等待

到最后还是
得到

对不起

这3个字。

爱一个人不难
想一个人才难

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

累

发呆

没事做

闷

无聊

晕

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

晕

我要的是什么？

我需要的又是什么？

我可以做什么？

我是什么？

Monday, January 19, 2009

今天到了

就这样

不知道该说什么才好

我爱你

真的

这辈子我还有机会爱你吗？
还有机会疼你吗
还有机会完成我和你的约定吗？

感觉应该没有这机会了
还是我对自己没有信心？

可能我没有这福气吧

希望你会幸福~

Sunday, January 18, 2009

最后一天

哈哈，还有一天

很高兴
因为我答应她的事做到了

可能在她的心理，我只是答应她，永远都做不到的

我能做的，我会尽量去做
我做不到，不是我忘了，而是我还没有能力去实现

我只想说我会尽量的去做。
答应你的我还是会去做
虽然我们不在一起了

我会一个人完成

不是要炫耀给别人看
只是想尽我的能力去完成！